Don't Fool
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Oblivion
Couldn't open my mouth. All I taste is the sorrowness of my own tears.
I wonder what I've done. My eyes are sore an swollen, I can't see anymore. I opened my mouth but the word won't come out.
It's all my fault.
I'm sorry, to have forced you to do so many things that you don't like. I din get anything in the end, I realised. And it feels gross, it feels so bad that I wanna cut myself. I dno what's worth fighting for, and why I have to cry. I dno how I got this way, I know it's not alright, I know it'll never be alright.
I feel betrayed.
Not by you but by myself. I feel like a fucking idiot who deceived himself to believe that all these are real. I cant accept this. I cant look into myself. I feel so distorted that my brain is tearing apart. I'm in misery. And momemts ago I still tot you'll be the one to bring me to my salvation. I was wrong, I was wrong all the while. I made my own life meaningless, it's not ur fault. This is the consequence that my actions deserve. But I just realised too late. . That I cant believe this now. The treasure at the end of the rainbow. . is juz cornflakes. . .
All these are juz cornflakes. Take me away.
This is the worst day of my life.
Couldn't open my mouth. All I taste is the sorrowness of my own tears.
I wonder what I've done. My eyes are sore an swollen, I can't see anymore. I opened my mouth but the word won't come out.
It's all my fault.
I'm sorry, to have forced you to do so many things that you don't like. I din get anything in the end, I realised. And it feels gross, it feels so bad that I wanna cut myself. I dno what's worth fighting for, and why I have to cry. I dno how I got this way, I know it's not alright, I know it'll never be alright.
I feel betrayed.
Not by you but by myself. I feel like a fucking idiot who deceived himself to believe that all these are real. I cant accept this. I cant look into myself. I feel so distorted that my brain is tearing apart. I'm in misery. And momemts ago I still tot you'll be the one to bring me to my salvation. I was wrong, I was wrong all the while. I made my own life meaningless, it's not ur fault. This is the consequence that my actions deserve. But I just realised too late. . That I cant believe this now. The treasure at the end of the rainbow. . is juz cornflakes. . .
All these are juz cornflakes. Take me away.
This is the worst day of my life.