Don't Fool
Friday, December 31, 2004
Cant slp so here i am..
Today's bad. I learnt alot bout gals' moms. I mean those families wif no sons. I finally understood how w.enny felt last time, n w.endi too. V helpless n got no choice but to accept wat is given to u.
Her mom is way cool! Gonna freeze me. I feel lyk fuck now. I don understand... let me quot tis " She's the mother of all mothers"
Thx to our dear lil princess keeping me accompany for the past 4 or 5 hrs. Trying to tell me how her mom (another mother of all mothers) behaves n unpleasant experiences wif her. " W.endi has tried but he failed" she said. Yea I think I tried today too n I failed lyk fuck.
To come n think bout it W.endi's been putting on wif tt for 2yrs already. I'll learn... I'll learn.. W.enny said she'll b a boy's mom next time. Cos she understands how her children will feel if she's a gal's mom. Does it make any sense to u? How would ur mother behave if all her children are gals?
2day's bad but I talked alot wif our lil princess. There're lots of similarities between we 2 pairs. Both their families had only daughters, n tt Bem couple's quarelling 24/7 too. N they got used to it. Man, it's killing me now. Stabing me wif a dagger, stab n stab n stab. Fine, I'll get used to it too.
To come n think bout it (again) tt Bem couple have been quarelling, or having any sort of unpleasant converstaion because of their own unstable mood or emotions for the past 2 yrs and yet they're in harmony now. So, I'll learn! Man! We're so similar!
I used to think if I know y we're unhappy over something then next time we can avoid it. The truth is, we cant, it's juz our mood n emotion. Today's nothing too, it's juz her mom kb her n we both sad now. Simple as tt but humans being emotional will think complicated, will try to relate one issue to another. Ya, so we're thinking too much. Juz heck n slp n tml will b back 2 norm.
If the Bems can do it, then so can we. And I wanna do betta than tt. Cos we express ourselves, tt made a difference.
So tis is it. I finally understood something, n wif tt I'll live happily ever aft. I will.. I'll make it happen.
It's 31st! 2yrs exactly since 2003. Happy new yr everyone! Today is a speacial day... Juz let me slp 1st.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
29.Dec04 (cos it's passed 12)
I hav a dental appointment later at 10am. It's regarding my fake teeth. Y is it me? Out of 100 or 1000 ppl 1 person is born with only tooth/teeth tt has no replacement. X) Fainted. I had a fun day today, spent the aftnoon with baby and played majong at nite.
Tsunami... 60000ppl( and counting..) died. I cant believe it, even Africa was hit by tis shit. I think tis is the worst disaster i've ever heard. The best is of course 911. Tml we're donating unused clothes to help the needy ppl, my mom saw tt on tv. Ya, good chance to help. I say our sch channel out their hard-cheated money from us to help the Idians or something. Today I also received msg from frens in China, asking me if m fine. Sg is safe geographically? But imagine if sg tio hit by such things? I think the whole island will be wiped out.
Saw yz's entry. "thx 2 vinci, i know he's been undergoing drastic changes"
It puts me into thinking aft reading tt. Drastic changes... I din realise it actually but aft I read tt I think he's right. I dno wat changes they are exactly but I recalled afew events which striked me hard. Wateva is it, I change for the betta, at least I think so =)
Aft all it's one exciting yr, esp the hols. Haha, sch life cant get anywhere near exciting. I learnt something bout schling tis hols. Often I wonder why I'm studying these subjects which I wont apply in my future life. Now it's solved. A uncle told me, now you're young, you have lots of time and opportunities. Don't waste them, do as much as you can. Learn as much as you can. Don't have to bother bout why you're learning them, will you need them in the future. Just learn as much as you can. Cos the more you learnt, the more "profile" you have. Which makes you stand out from the crowd. And you'll have betta chances of winning next time. So now, learn as much as you can, play as much as you can. Cos when you grow up u may not be able to travel wif you frens again, everyone's working and leading their own lives. So play hard when you still can.
Absolutely enlightened by wat he said! Shldn't I realised tt long ago? Yea and personally I prefer tt play hard part. Hahaha, I'll work hard. I still wanna be extraordinary=)
Monday, December 27, 2004
Dec 27th. 04
Alright, reflections
Saw LH's longest entry ever. realised something, which is, his entries shows his deep tots n maturity while m juz a??? K, tt's not the pt. I juz noticed tt it's good to reflect. Esp to write it down cos we're all forgetful animals.
This year is very interesting (I have no other words to describe it). I rmb last yr I stoned outside KK hall looking at my MSG of 2.86 I was feeling very low. I definitely could have done betta than tt. During dec hols 03 I wrote a reflection. So at the beginning of this yr I was very positive. Volunteered to be class monitor, stood for council election, paid attention during lesson and put in more effort in my studies.
Starting of tis yr is crazy, with the implementation of IP policies, "complusory" ACE, MRP, humanity subject having no text book n etc. Everyone did badly I guess. I did ok I think, had a MSG of 3.3 (not sure) From term two onwards I slackened. Just look at me, Class chairman leading the class to not do any homework, I also din call for even 1 class meeting or committee meeting this yr. Well, but I wanna thank my committee, esp YZ. I think in the starting we did good, initiated the Class Forum, made Class Jersey. Yea but as time went on we slackened...
But no doubt our class is one of the best class in the level. Of course I'm not talking bout our academic performance. We're a fun class, we got unity and spirit. And thx 2 tt spirit everyone worked their asses off for the EOY. Honestly I'm happy with our result n I think next yr we can do betta. Comon! Beat those bio fuckers' asses off. I mean, at least 1 class la, I know 3H is a ghost's class. So yea, screw those nerds.
As for council. I really got nothing to say other than, " I, Zhangwenxin is really not suitable to take part in any politics, comon, m juz a businessman " I totally cannot devote myself in doing any social works. Tt's all, short and sweet.
Sorry, let me juz say something. I CANT STAND TT FUCKING NEWS!!! TT STUPID MORTHERLESS TSUNAMI!!! Y the hell it hits in Asia, go to the West la! Wah screw man! Poor Indians.... M wordless, tt stupid tv is too loud. M getting affected n i saw tt woman crying n pulling the dead body of her own daughter. Hell..
K, back to my reflections.
This holiday was the greatest I've ever had. We travelled for 5 weeks totally by ourselves. Wat have we done? Lost the key to our hotel in Hongkong. Missed a flight from Beijing to Guangzhou which costed us 900RMB. I took off my shirts on the Great Walls of China. Saw snow in Xi'an at -9 degrees. Basically saw all famous historical sites of China. I mean, wat do u get in Xi'an? Tombs. Tomb of tis king n tt queen. It's all there. N Beijing? Juz another historical city. Before you go to a place, you'll wonder what you'll get to see, you imagine how great a particular famous attraction is (ex. the great wall). However after you see it'll be " Tt's it..." Yes. They looked cool on tv but if you see it b4, tt's it.
Well tt's not the pt of travelling. I agree tt travelling is the best way to learn, n to bond wif frens. It's been 2yrs since I last went back. I saw China's progress and potential. However many ppl are still poor. When I sat in the car and looked the the ppl along the roadside, I viewed things from another angle. I saw them queueing for bus, rushing up the bus, squeezing each other. I saw them dressed up in little clothes though it's winter. I saw them eating plain noodles along the roadside. I told myself, I wanna be extraordinary. I wanna do something big in the future! Guess tt's my biggest learning pt of the whole trip. It gave me a motivation.
Lastly, my relationship with frens. Did I learn anything new? I think so... And I'm still learning. Well, I need to learn to be more sensible, calm and objective. M a extremely emotional creature ( don tell me u din see me cry b4 n shits lyk tt, tt's not the pt). I'll value the loves I had. Long way to go...
Next yr.. I don look fwd to wearing new sch uniform for the simple fact tt we're wearing it to go sch. I'll see wat I can do...
Take care peepz
Alright, reflections
Saw LH's longest entry ever. realised something, which is, his entries shows his deep tots n maturity while m juz a??? K, tt's not the pt. I juz noticed tt it's good to reflect. Esp to write it down cos we're all forgetful animals.
This year is very interesting (I have no other words to describe it). I rmb last yr I stoned outside KK hall looking at my MSG of 2.86 I was feeling very low. I definitely could have done betta than tt. During dec hols 03 I wrote a reflection. So at the beginning of this yr I was very positive. Volunteered to be class monitor, stood for council election, paid attention during lesson and put in more effort in my studies.
Starting of tis yr is crazy, with the implementation of IP policies, "complusory" ACE, MRP, humanity subject having no text book n etc. Everyone did badly I guess. I did ok I think, had a MSG of 3.3 (not sure) From term two onwards I slackened. Just look at me, Class chairman leading the class to not do any homework, I also din call for even 1 class meeting or committee meeting this yr. Well, but I wanna thank my committee, esp YZ. I think in the starting we did good, initiated the Class Forum, made Class Jersey. Yea but as time went on we slackened...
But no doubt our class is one of the best class in the level. Of course I'm not talking bout our academic performance. We're a fun class, we got unity and spirit. And thx 2 tt spirit everyone worked their asses off for the EOY. Honestly I'm happy with our result n I think next yr we can do betta. Comon! Beat those bio fuckers' asses off. I mean, at least 1 class la, I know 3H is a ghost's class. So yea, screw those nerds.
As for council. I really got nothing to say other than, " I, Zhangwenxin is really not suitable to take part in any politics, comon, m juz a businessman " I totally cannot devote myself in doing any social works. Tt's all, short and sweet.
Sorry, let me juz say something. I CANT STAND TT FUCKING NEWS!!! TT STUPID MORTHERLESS TSUNAMI!!! Y the hell it hits in Asia, go to the West la! Wah screw man! Poor Indians.... M wordless, tt stupid tv is too loud. M getting affected n i saw tt woman crying n pulling the dead body of her own daughter. Hell..
K, back to my reflections.
This holiday was the greatest I've ever had. We travelled for 5 weeks totally by ourselves. Wat have we done? Lost the key to our hotel in Hongkong. Missed a flight from Beijing to Guangzhou which costed us 900RMB. I took off my shirts on the Great Walls of China. Saw snow in Xi'an at -9 degrees. Basically saw all famous historical sites of China. I mean, wat do u get in Xi'an? Tombs. Tomb of tis king n tt queen. It's all there. N Beijing? Juz another historical city. Before you go to a place, you'll wonder what you'll get to see, you imagine how great a particular famous attraction is (ex. the great wall). However after you see it'll be " Tt's it..." Yes. They looked cool on tv but if you see it b4, tt's it.
Well tt's not the pt of travelling. I agree tt travelling is the best way to learn, n to bond wif frens. It's been 2yrs since I last went back. I saw China's progress and potential. However many ppl are still poor. When I sat in the car and looked the the ppl along the roadside, I viewed things from another angle. I saw them queueing for bus, rushing up the bus, squeezing each other. I saw them dressed up in little clothes though it's winter. I saw them eating plain noodles along the roadside. I told myself, I wanna be extraordinary. I wanna do something big in the future! Guess tt's my biggest learning pt of the whole trip. It gave me a motivation.
Lastly, my relationship with frens. Did I learn anything new? I think so... And I'm still learning. Well, I need to learn to be more sensible, calm and objective. M a extremely emotional creature ( don tell me u din see me cry b4 n shits lyk tt, tt's not the pt). I'll value the loves I had. Long way to go...
Next yr.. I don look fwd to wearing new sch uniform for the simple fact tt we're wearing it to go sch. I'll see wat I can do...
Take care peepz
Sunday, December 26, 2004
this whole hols's been lyk surfing on a tsunami for me. too exciting.
i learnt many new things, but i lost my aims. i rmb 3 yrs ago at the end of the yr, i sat down n wrote a bloody fucking long essay. i was listening to the music "fisherman's horizon" hmm...
peace, tt's wat i need.
i cant stand to have nothing to do. even it's juz one day. er... so i still prefer surfing on a tsunami. but i am still surfing... let me land...
Saturday, December 25, 2004
hi. one yr's passed so fast, it's xmas again. n it's going 2 pass soon.
hmm how to describe my feeling? juz lyk the song m listening now. i think it's time for me to bail, clean my room when all else fails...
lol not tt. anyway realised tt talks r always needed. n only frens who care bout u will talk 2 u n... yup only those who care bout u will pt out ur mistakes, cos it's 4 ur own good? makes sense huh, if i heck bout u i can juz leave u alone n rot. so.. ya talks r always needed.
er.. tt's all. stay cool n fat ;)
N... yup one more thing.
Tis xmas is great. I seriously mean it GREAT. Although some shits cocked up but they were solved. Y is wat great? Cos it's a HOTDATE! Yea babe. I gave my baby a super cute present. so did she. ahem. Strictly R(A) Strong Parental Advisory needed. Went out wif frens, as usual we ate a big meal. Then went to wendi's house spent the nite till 3am? crazy xmas. pretty fun.
Tt was xams eve. on xmas it's another hotdate 4 me, and my parents were wif me too. Cool huh? at nite i saw the movie kungfu, not up to the expectations.
N tt's a fast n short n memorable xmas. i thank all my frens 4 staying wif me ^^ n thx 2 my darling too. i love u darling =)
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Hi all,
I'm back from my trip. Was wanting to post an entry on the trip but I realised it's too long. And I forgot many part, have to look back at my daily reports I sent 2 some1. Haha. As a whole the trip is awesome, best I ever had. When I left I was sad. Sorry, m not a singaporean aft all. But still happy 2 come back here.
Today, I mean just now cos it's 3.49 now so.. Yesterday + Today's 1st 3 hrs is one of my happiest day in my life. Really felt relaxed. The last time I had such happy n peaceful feeling was my last day at Jakarta's theme park Dufan. Yesterday was great =)
Well, m going 2 slp. Peep, enjoy ur hols.